I am a snail without a shell...

3rd and Long....
I hadn't really thought about it for a while...but last night, I had this crazy dream that I smoked a cigarette. Some weird stuff was happening, none that needs really to be noted, but it was SOOOOOO intense and felt SOOOOOOO real! I couldn't believe it, I had smoked one whole cigarette...but I felt totally guilty afterward cuz my friends were yelling at me...mind you this is all in my dream. Wow, that's the only reaction I can spit out about that. And now, it's been on my mind ever since I told Cic about it during lunch...shiyet. Arrrgh....THIS is the time it gets harder...when I really start thinking about it. I think that before I was a lil preoccupied w/ stuff...but now that I'm gonna be studyin for my EIT and stressin. And this is my attempt to stop quitting forever...man, it's so easy to fall off the wagon, cuz if I just had one puff, I know it'd be over...just like that. Sheesh...talk about the long haul. I know it'll be tough...so hopefully I make it out alright, I've got really good friends helpin me out through it all, so I know I will.